Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in nghtshad7's LiveJournal:

Friday, November 5th, 2004
6:14 pm	My Life's Purpose My moment of perfect clarity has finally arrived. I now know exactly what I want to do with my life. I am going to study cultures and civilizations. I'm going to take a linguistics class and then I am going to study about the sociology, philosophy, and psychology of other cultures. Is that not the most interesting thing ever? I can hardly wait. I have no idea why I thought I would be happy in a scientific field. What was I thinking? I am so excited now. I can't believe that I never thought about all this stuff before. Oh, well, now I know. This deserves a very special poem. One that I will now compose. I walk amongst the enemy, the cruel wind that creeps past skin to freeze the inner heart. My wide-open eyes drip unchecked tears as my soul cowers like a beaten animal. I have seen the horror of man. My soul crushed like a flower ripped from a garden not yet ready to bloom. Paralyzed with fear. Patience, waiting; it will all end soon. Monotonous days of bleak gray skies, a million faces unseen as the inside weeps bloody tears for a pain never forgotten. Sun that shines through these grey skies, so brightly blinding it tries to disguise those harsh memories that despite all remain so clear in your mind. The light can shine upon the darkness and hasten it away, but always it lingers on the fringes seeking to take control, at the slightest weakness it pounces. Moments of utter despair that give rise to deepest depression, the light cannot destroy what hides in the mind. It can never be forgotten. Current Mood: Life is great! Current Music: Glay-High Communications (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
1:33 pm	(Continued) So here we are some 12 hours later. Why did Bush win? Why?! Who on earth would vote for him? We need change. Oh, well, the Democrats will rule in 2008. (Vote Michelle!) I have returned from Japanese class. I know now that I know nothing. :( Japanese is a very interesting language. It is very different from the romance languages. But I think I will take Chinese next. I am desperately trying to decide on my classes for next semester (and really for the next 3.5 years). Any suggestions? I think I will go to an advising meeting today. Oh, no. I forgot I had class today. whoops! Gotta go! I will leave you with 2 relatively short poems since I didn't write any in my last entry. Nightingale Wings of blackest night, Eyes as bright as stars, A shadow against the sky. Flight of the Nightingale Indescribable beauty, Poetry in motion, Undeniable grace. Current Mood: oh god no more class pleazzzzz Current Music: GLAY (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:41 am	I don't know I have been told that this is not a live journal since I do not update. So I am updating. Ha! :) Anyway, I am very upset about the election. I am now afraid since Bush is going to have another 4 years. How many more of our rights will be stomped on and taken away? I hope everyone reading this voted for Kerry. If not, shame on you! Oh, well, I will just have to flee the country. Any votes for which country? I'm thinking Japan (konnichiwa) or Spain (hola) or some other European country. By the way spanglish has nothing on japanglish(my own word creation). We literally use English words with a Japanese accent. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
12:58 pm	Just a thought My class was discussing love. Who do you love? Why do you love them? Why do they love you? What is it that you love about them? If they were different would you love them? If they got into an accident or had a disease that changed or destroyed everything about them could you love them? Would you love them or the memory of them? Would you remain with them or leave them? The discussion was very interesting and it got me thinking. If two people are in love that doesn't mean that they love each other in the same way or the same amount. Two people can be in a relationship and the love between them could grow or wither. People are always changing. Their capacity for love is always changing and the way they love one another is as well. In order for two people to remain in love they need to put in an effort. Love is not effortless; it requires a great deal of time and work. You should never take another person's love for granted. It may not always be there for you. Just some thoughts I needed to put down on paper. I reach blindly seeking what is not there, clinging to fragments of memories, once you were always at my side, I reach blindly seeking what is lost. Anxiously seeking the fulfillment of your empty promises, begging for this to be a nightmare, you promised never to leave, to love me forever, Anxiously seeking the realization of your lies. Desperately seeking that false light, searching for something out of reach, you were once there but now my heart is empty, desperately seeking that false warmth. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
10:33 am	The First Entry Hi. Let's see...what should I write about myself? I like fencing, reading science fiction/fantasy, and writing short stories and poetry. I can speak some french and spanish. I love anything to do with Japan. I'm learning Japanese right now. It is awesome! I love to listen to Japanese music, especially j rock. I like j pop, too. My favorite Japanese music bands are Dir en grey, Malice Mizer, L'arc en ciel, X Japan, GLAY, and, of course, Gackt. I am hoping to study abroad in Tokyo, Japan my junior year. That would be awesome. I am planning on majoring in biochemistry and maybe Japanese, but I'm sure I'll change my mind at some point about the biochem. I like to learn new languages and I love to learn about new cultures. My greatest wish is to travel all around the world. But for now I'll just stay here and dream. For your pleasure, a poem by me: Turning Seasons (The Warring Seasons) The prancing of Spring's step, dancing on newly-risen grass, flowers unfurling in her wake, Winter banished by this golden lass. Summer enters on her galloping steed, she battles with a glaring heat, the burning sun her herald, Spring conquered laying at her feet. Autumn sedately strolls, burnished leaves wave on the trees, her russet cloak whips in the wind, Autumn lashing as Summer flees. Bitter Winter strikes the earth, her icy touch burning, Autumn frozen by her kiss, Until Spring returns ever-enduring. Current Mood: content Current Music: Dir en grey Macabre (Comment on this)